So recently I had my one year [cancer free] follow up and everything came back great except one thing. There is a growth on my lung that has been there since day one that has never been of any concern to the oncology team since it was so tiny and was probably just scar tissue.
Well, the little spot on my lung just grew to 8mm in size and my CEA (tumor marker) level ticked up to 5.7 from 5.0. So….now the team is concerned and wants to do a lung biopsy.
Here’s the problem….. it’s in the worst place (of course) possible. It’s nestled up against my aorta. That’s a HUGE problem since doing a biopsy would involve opening up my chest, pushing aside my heart and removing the growth from my lung.
Arrrgh!! I just want my life back…..is that too much to ask?
Apparently God isn’t done with me yet and has His own plan for me. So, I guess I’ve always known that but from a….human perspective, I just want to be done with this cancer thing and move on with my life. BUT, that’s not in the cards right now so, I just need to be patient and, trust that He has things under control and, that’s the thing about “faith”, the belief of things unknown/unseen.
So, I trusted in Him throughout my cancer journey and I came out the other side a better person and, cancer FREE…..not to mention the ability to help others who are struggling with the same thing, the second deadliest cancer in the US, colorectal cancer (CRC).
And considering all the things I’ve been through in my 50 years, I should be dead a bunch of times….but I’m not. But like I’ve said before, I’m not a cat so, I don’t know how many more lives I’ve got left in me so, better to just let it be and let God take care of this and know that He can and that He will so, I can have my life back and continue to move forward.
*****sigh*****